Archive for July, 2011


Live Life to the Fullest

I know this is a sad topic to build a blog post around, but I feel like it’s an important one. So often we get caught up in our little lives that we forget to live our lives to the fullest or to simply enjoy this life even if it’s a hard one. We get used to getting up, going to work, going to lunch, getting off work to make dinner, chill, then go to sleep. We usually wake up and do this again and again without even thinking about it. It’s the same for a college student, but college is usually a time to live life by the spur of the moment. Not everyone does that, however. I was a pretty boring college student. I did some fun stuff, of course, but if I could go back and redo it, I would change so much. And it’s not just the college days that I would go back and change. But that’s not how life works.

It Can Be Gone in a Second

Just the other day, I had to go to a young man’s funeral. I went to kindergarten with him. I will never forget that day as long as I live. I felt like I was seeing myself lying there. It really gave me  a rude awakening (reality check) because I realized that life can be taken from you at any point. He was so young and so full of life. I remember seeing him last summer at the Madison Regatta, and that same, smiling Ryan Moreland keeps playing in my mind. I can’t believe he’s gone. I went to the funeral procession, saw all the people crying and cried myself, but I still can’t believe he’s gone. I think about it in the middle of the day and just get teary eyed and upset.

Your Heartbeat is a Blessing

Some people like to avoid this topic, but I think it’s important to live your life knowing it can be taken from you in a second because it makes you see your life differently and it makes you treat others differently. Ryan lived his life to the fullest, but he didn’t realize that full life would end up taking him from this world. Only those of you who know how he died will understand. For those of you that don’t, it wouldn’t be fair for me to expose those details. I wanted to bring some realization to some of the young people who think they’re invincible and who don’t think that life can get away from them. It can and it will if you don’t take control and live life knowing your heartbeat is a blessing.

R & B

Some of this new R & B that has come out is something I can’t ignore. Miguel’s new album All I Want Is You is some of that new R&B that I can’t stop listening to. Check out the songs, Teach Me, All I Want Is You, My Piece, Pay Me, Girls Like You, Hard Way, Hero and Vixen aka almost the whole CD. I used to constanly listen to R & B, but it depended on where my love life was at the moment, for real. I know that sounds silly, but when I shut myself off, after being in a couple relationships, I didn’t want to listen to that love crap. As most of you can tell, music is something that really speaks to me in more ways than one and it always has an effect on my mood.

But the fact of the matter is I don’t have to be in love to listen to R&B anymore. I’ve grown great appreciation for both genres, but I’ve noticed I’ve been listening to a lot more R&B because I feel that it is truer to life right now. Granted hip hop speaks to us because it keeps us motivated to brush off the haters, it’s very true in its exaggeration of the language, it’s something we can vibe to in the club, AND very mindful about what’s going on in our world today (but some artists have lost sight of this). But R&B is something all of us can relate to because it talks about love, relationships, etc. We as a human race all seek love throughout our lives, whether that be relationships, friendships, or love for ourselves. There’s no denying that.

This is a hip hop blog, or at least that was the idea when I first created this portfolio of my writing. But as most of you have heard, hip hop is in jeopardy. Some of you don’t even think twice about this, you know it’s in jeopardy. Others are looking at this post like, ‘what do you mean?’ But the truth of the matter is hip hop has become a different hip hop than what it originally started out to be.

The First Hip Hop

When it first came out, people were intrigued by the beat which is ultimately the first thing you groove to when you hear a song. Hip hop began in the ’70’s –a perfect time for dancing– which went on through the ’80’s. Then hip hop went through a stage of what some people call “gangsta” rap which influenced a lot of beef among artists such as 2Pac and Biggie. The “gangsta” stuff has calmed down for the most part, but that’s what has people wondering what real hip hop is. Most consider Pac and Biggie’s time as real hip hop. Other classify the stuff before them as real hip hop.

Today’s Hip Hop

The stuff we hear today from Wayne and Wiz Khalifa though, is not real hip hop. I’m not saying that I don’t listen to them at all! I’m just saying they aren’t talking about anything expect weed and hoes. Wayne started off giving us “the best rapper alive,” anthem but the last few years he’s been making commercial music, rock music, and R&B or whatever “How to Love Is.” He is simply trying to brag about what he thinks he can do for a woman and not what he can do for the game. Times have changed which means music has changed. Shock value is what we want as Americans now. If we don’t have that, we don’t want to hear what the artist is saying. But R&B has the sexy language, too. It’s way more enticing to hear when someone is singing rather than yelling it.

Put Yourself First

Take a Look at Yourself Objectively

Because we live our lives behind our own eyes, we aren’t usually able to step back and see what actions we’re actually making. We get caught up in the everyday. We just get so used to seeing out of our own eyes that we can’t see what we’re doing wrong or why we remain at the same level instead of growing into a better person. We have to look at ourselves objectively because we too, make mistakes. We may be better able to justify them because we know ourselves and how to get around even what we’re doing wrong, but that’s not healthy for us.

I’ve been comfortable in being the captain behind this ship of life, but things don’t always go my way. And when they don’t, I have to step back and take a look at myself and see what I’m doing wrong. Is this relationship what I want it to be? Am I treating this person how I’d want to be treated? Am I getting the respect I need from this relationship? Etc. Sometimes when we’re used to be the only one running things, we forget to put ourselves first. Not only do we forget to do that, but we forget to respect ourselves and our accomplishments.

Respect and Trust Yourself to Put You First

That’s the first thing we have to do in order to make ourselves happy! There are a lot of people out there who would rather put others first before themselves. That’s really nice and all, but it’s not realistic. If you do that, chances are you’re not going to be very happy. Doing things for others is a good deed indeed, but doing things for yourself will make you better able to do things for others. And the thing about helping other people is that they may get used to you helping them and then you’re getting nothing in return. That’s not good for your self-esteem. Put yourself first, respect and trust yourself first and the rest will fall into place. I promise. Your life will truly turn around if you’re making yourself number 1. Those other people will always be there (in a sense), you only have one chance to get this life right. Do you!

Tech N9ne–A REAL hip hop artist

Tech N9ne and All 6’s and 7’s

Those of you hip hop fans who don’t listen to Tech N9ne because his music is too dark are missing out on real hip hop. Just because you’d rather hear a tight beat and a rapper talking about how much p***y he can get, news flash! That’s not music. As old as I may sound saying it, it’s just noise. Granted that’s what hip hop has become and it’s easier for an artist to get on a track and spit about the booty he had last night, or how f***ed up he got instead of really putting heart into the music.

If you’ve doubted him, just go to his page, therealtechn9ne.com and found out more about him, but first you’re going to have to get that ablum!! My favorite songs are “I love Music”, “Worldwide Choppers”, “Strangeland”, “You Owe Like Pookie”, “If I Could”, “Love Me Tomorrow”, “Mama Nem”, “Delusional”, and “Promiseland”. Which is mostly the whole album, duh. Since I’ve heard it, that’s really all I’m listening to, no joke.

Tech N9ne's new album

True Hip Hop

ANYONE can be an artist these days, but it takes TRUE talent, TRUE dedication, and TRUE love for what you’re trying to tell the world. Don’t get me wrong, I still listen to that noise, but I know what real hip hop is supposed to be and right now Tech N9ne is trying to change that game, and he’s doing a damn good job of it. Mind you, on his new album All 6’s and 7’s, he collabs with B.o.B, Snoop Dogg, Wayne, E-40, Busta Rhymes, T-Pain, and Twista.

And quite honestly, they’re the reason I gave this album a chance because I’m used to hearing them. I’m a Wayne follower so “F*** Food” was the song I listened to first. I had to warm up to the album and to Tech N9ne. Maybe that’s the wrong mindset, but you can never push music on anyone. Everyone listens when they’re ready, and I’m no exception. But after hearing the whole album, Wayne doesn’t even matter on that one song. Tech N9ne takes over!

He has songs that I may consider noise such as “Pornographic” (E-40 and Snoop Dogg are in this one) and “F*** Food (Wayne and T-Pain)”, but again since that’s part of our hip hop these days, he creates songs like those to appeal to the basic hip hop fans. I actually like those songs because they’re a good break from the other material, but the other material is much more important. Lil Wayne’s appearance on the song may have other people thinking that Tech N9ne is commercial like the other hip hop artists, but he still stays true to himself.

He even addresses that people may see him that way in “Love Me Tomorrow” saying “said I’m a sell out ’cause I worked with Wayne / first your brain need work / you hurt the game / every lyric that blurst put the earth to shame / how do we burst to fame if both our verse the same / we supposed to be different / you know that we gifted”. I think it was really bold of him to include those artists on his album, but I think he did so just to show that he can work with them without becoming them. They were able to create a very unique sound on the album, but the sound is still all Tech N9ne.

Tech N9ne’s music is dark because he’s been dealt darkness, as so many of us have seen. A true artist writes because he/she HAS to, not because he/she wants to. It’s just part of their DNA. I don’t know all of his story, but I’m working on it. I know that he has seen one hell of a life so far and I have that in common with him, so I’m really able to understand why his music was so dark for so long.

Able to Relate to Tech’s Subject Matter

People who’ve gone through some craziness feel like they have the obligation to share it with everyone else so that they know they’re not alone. I understand the song “Boogieman” (Which is the Tech N9ne I used to dislike) too because it seems to be describing just the general evil that you see in the world. Or at least that’s how it comes through to me and music is open for interpretation. It isn’t just written for the artist. He writes for his fans. Music is supposed to speak to all of us. It speaks to me so much that I feel like the album was written for me 🙂

I’m going to be writing more about him. I can’t even write just one post. It’s physically impossible. I hope you stay tuned!

Switching It Up

I want to steer clear from the typical Kayla hip hop blog post. For one R & B is sounding more like my music these days because it’s actually more true than hip hop right now. Don’t worry, I’ll definitely writing about that in my next post or the one after that. But there is more to me than music, although I’d marry it if I could. It just makes me feel good, but music is supposed to have that influence on us. Besides music, I’m trying to figure out life, like we all are. I want to use my experience as a way to connect to others and as a way to figure out this life.

Anyway… I’m a young woman who’s been through a lot. I’m not going to spill all the details or anything like that, but am using my experience to understand why my life is the way it is. I often find that God is really showing me signs that he’s working with me to better my life. Sometimes negativity creeps up on me, but I’m trying to get away from that. I’m seemingly negative myself because of what I’ve gone through. But I know that being positive is where it’s at, so I’m getting there. This is one big, scary world if you’re in it alone and alone is not the way to go. Believe me, I’ve done a lot on my own, and sometimes I feel alone because of that, but I’m actually really thankful for how things have turned out.

Discovering Who I Am

I’m finally realizing who I am as a woman. I may not be fully aware of the person I’m able to be until a little later in life, but I’m blessed that I know that now. I’m also realizing I can’t go through this life by myself, fighting struggles on my own. I’ve tried to put off friendships or relationships because I think I need to figure everything out alone. I’ve always had my family there, though, even through the rough times. And friends sometimes are more of a hassle than a help, so I’m just fine with assuming everyone is that way, but I know now that’s not the case. They are a few good people in this crazy world 🙂

Embracing Friendship

I haven’t always been able to embrace friendship because I’ve learned early that you can’t trust everyone. That’s not a positive image of people and that follows you throughout your life, but only if you let it. Two people have really changed my perception of people. They are extraordinary people and I’m blessed that I met them because now I see the importance of friendship. I’m going to carry that over to my other TRUE friendships because  it’s better to have good people around, but all people aren’t good people so you have to be selective. I’m not being negative by saying that but only saying that you can’t let everyone in. Some people really don’t have your best interest at heart. Watch for them and don’t be naive to the fact that they are there. You probably know one you can think of right now. I know I do.