First off, for anyone who thinks I’m trying to be black because I like hip hop or because I prefer dating black men, then you have another thing coming. I can’t even remember a time I wasn’t in love with hip hop. Ok, maybe I’m lying. Since I came from a family who lives in the country, I too, used to listen to country. But don’t tell anyone! 🙂  Mind you, that was probably when I was like 10 or younger and my memory is terrible so it seems like much longer to me. It’s been a little weird for me trying to figure out why I’m a white girl so intrigued with a black man’s music and culture, but it’s me so that’s the only conclusion I’ve been able to come up with.

What made me completely stop listening to country is probably the next thing you’re wondering. I guess at first, I wanted to be part of the “cool crowd”. I fell under the “everyone is doing it” thing, but everything happens for a reason and look where it got me. I don’t usually do what everyone else is doing, but when it came to listening to hip hip, that was an exception.

My like for hip hop turned into a love for the people and the industry. The first time I ever listened to rap or r & b for that matter, was Mase. It might take some of you a minute to even recall who Mase was, it’s been so long. Thankfully, my interest in the artists of the industry grew and grew. Now it’s ALL I listen to. I’ll sneak some r & b in there every once in a while when I’m feeling like taking it easy or getting my cake on, but hip hop is at the center of my attention the rest of the time. I’d much rather hear Wayne, Jay-Z, Eminem, or J. Cole spit on a track than listen to Beyonce sing. She is an amazing artist. But I’d rather look at her than listen to her music. Her hubby Jay-Z wins more playing time with me than she….But it’s all good 🙂

I’ve taken it beyond just listening to hip hop, though. As I’ve already mentioned, my African American Lit paper for Dr. Drake at UIndy was about hip hop. I was able to take the knowledge I already gained from listening and following the work of Eminem, Lil Wayne, and Jay-Z and apply it to the new knowledge I acquired from reading the critical discussions on hip hop. Believe it or not, hip hop is just as popular in our culture than you even think. Do a little research on Eminem. He is highly anthologized in critical hip hop discussions. Hip hop may not be a part of YOUR culture, but it is part of society’s culture and YOU’RE a part of society. Take that however you want.


I’m knowledgeable about hip hop because I’ve listened to it for so long. But just because I’ve listened to it for a while, doesn’t necessarily make me an expert just yet. I’m an extremely truthful person which is why I  gravitate to hip hop so much. My truthfulness is sometimes too true, just like hip hop. Most of society doesn’t want to hear the truth, no matter what it is, but truth is what I do. Truth keeps me more focused on how to get better at something than how to avoid it….Truth also makes me avoid those special people who are as fake as press on nails. I’m very blessed and thankful for who I’ve become and for who my family raised me to be. I come from a long line of fiesty, truthful people such as my mother and grandmother. I’m very proud of the woman who raised me; I am who I am because of her.

Mommy and Me

I would love to write hip hop and I’ve tried, but so far I’ve been too afraid of the way others would see me. I’m very comfortable with who I am, but I definitely don’t want to be mistaken for trying to be black. In my research I explain that in deeper detail, but I’ll give you guys a little taste….In hip hop history, women haven’t been as popular in the industry as men have. Does that make it all-male music industry? I’ve questioned that myself. Women are accepted for their bodies, for that fat asses and fat boobies, but are they taken seriously in the hip hop world? As much as I want to say yes, I can’t. When was the last time you saw a successful white woman rapper make it in the industry, anyway? Never. By the end of the paper, I define what it means to be a white woman in the industry, and I conclude that I’ve have to be a ghostwriter, like Keri Hilson started out doing, in order to be half-way accepted in the hip hop world. And even with that, there would be no guarantee. Some encourage me to go for it, but since I’m a realist, I know the reality that lies ahead, so we’ll see……

In the meantime, I will continue to promote the hip hop white girl that I am…..The pose below was taken for this website specifically, not just because I wanted to wear a hat and heels together. The pose is supposed to capture my hip hop side and my sophisticated one. I’m a bit of a fashionista so I thought by combining the two looks, I could begin to create my own brand. As you can see, I chose the other pose for the website. I did so because it’s more of a hip hop look….and because I like the orange and black Yankees hat better 🙂

One of Kayla's poses for her portfolio website